this is not real - Paperback

by Gabriella J. Nnadi (Author)

What do you do when you have no idea what you want?

Jess has mastered the art of not being here. She hides behind doomscrolling, oversleeping, and hookups that her best friend would not approve of. Not to mention the endless screenplays collecting dust in her closet and the laptop folders whispering of the girl she used to be.

But what happens when she's suddenly forced to face all the problems she's been avoiding? Her parents, who want almost nothing to do with her, and her best friend, who has more to say than Jess expected. And, of course, her own demons, which are harder to leave than she originally thought.

A deeply human story, about fighting the slow and agonizing process of getting back on your feet, and making a place for yourself when no one else will. Follow Jess as she changes her perspective---literally.