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The Way I Used to Be

The Way I Used to Be


Book Overview: The Way I Used to Be

New York Times bestseller! In the tradition of Speak, Amber Smith's extraordinary debut novel " is a heart-twisting, but ultimately hopeful, exploration of how pain can lead to strength" (The Boston Globe).

Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn't change who she was. But the night her brother's best friend rapes her, Eden's world capsizes.

What was once simple, is now complex. What Eden once loved--who she once loved--she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true, is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she's supposed to tell someone what happened but she can't. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.

Told in four parts--freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior year--this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman's strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, all while learning to embrace the power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.

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Amber Smith is an acclaimed author known for her insightful and emotive writing. Her debut novel, "The Way I Used to Be," explores themes of resilience and trust which garnered wide acclaim and was listed as a New York Times Bestseller. She has a background in art and has used her keen understanding of human emotions and intricacies to create compelling stories. Smith also regularly speaks on trauma, the #MeToo movement, and the importance of inclusive narrative, particularly in YA literature. She resides in North Carolina, continually advocating for gender equality, fluidity, and understanding through her work.


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